Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Cheating Death............

How many times can you cheat death?????????? Seriously, this has to be some kind of joke. But this awful joke is my reality...... WHY!!! Why me? Why my children????

Cerriah has been dealing with awful sugar lows lately. Three times in the past week to be exact. Her latest, worst battle, was just this morning. We have had the ambulance at our home twice in the past week. I couldn't wake her this morning.

I have nightmares. Nightmares that I can't wake up from. I was so scared when she was unresponsive this morning. Thank God David was here with me today. After 5 minutes of trying to wake her, she finally opened her eyes. I wasn't (and was) thankful. Why? Because her eyes had a blank stare and were rolling in the back of her head. I don't know which was worse, not waking up or the blank stare. Saliva dribbling down her chin, not being able to speak, completely limp in her daddy's arms. A sight I can not get out of my mind.......

She's fine now. She's awake and running around. But I ask, how many times??? I am tired of these jokes. She is such a fighter, so resilient, but will she ever grow tired of fighting for her life? I don't even want to ponder those thoughts right now. I can't. I won't.

I am broken, broken beyond repair.

Monday, March 23, 2009


With Eli turning 5, he has come up some funny antics lately. Here are a few he has come up with:

Yesterday he woke up and was really tired. He told me "Mommy, my head doesn't want me to get out of bed".
My head was telling me the same thing!!

"Mommy, why is God in heaven?"
I didn't have time to respond. He came up with his own answer.
"Oh, I know why. He's there so people don't escape from Heaven to come down here."
Somehow he will see the irony in that some day. Heaven is one place I wouldn't want to leave :)

Quarter Year Resolution????

I hate to admit. I am SO bad at documenting things in life. I promise myself I won't forget things, and I always somehow manage. So I am making a "quarter year resolution" to myself. I am going to try to document at least some things dainly about my kiddos. This is mainly for myself, so not feel obligated to follow ;)

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Little Boy

So my baby turned five on March 16th! Yes, my kids birthday's one day apart! It wasn't planned, he just decided to come a few weeks early.

Here are some things about you baby!

My last child, my second son.
Cute and quirky.
Momma's boy.
Loving and caring.
LOVES Cars!!
Gives me daily hugs.
Has come up with some silly antics lately.
Dreading Kindergarten this year (both of us!!)
Know how to write his own name.
Tells silly jokes that don't really make sense ;)
Around girls SO much.
Loves his cousins.

I love you baby!!!



Sweet Girl

My sweet girl turned 8 on March 15th. I am a late posting about her, but want to keep this in her record.

Here are some things about you!!

Sweet and funny.
Always making people laugh.
Stubborn as a mule, doesn't like to change her mind :)
Fun loving and free spirited.
Caring and cute.
Loves to help others.
Cries when she can't sleep with our dog, Tinkerbell.
Lover of all animals.
Kind hearted and compassionate.
Smart and accelerated in reading.
Loves dancing and can't wait to more.
Breaking out of her shyness shell!
Makes up funny dance moves.
Incredibly talented.
Beautiful smile.

I could go on forever!!!

You are "wonderfully" made by our awesome Creator!!!